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With quickness, she reached him. She grabbed him by the hand, and pulled him towards her. Hastily, she swam back up, and onto the pier. She saw the cuts. None of them were deep. That wouldn't kill him. However, he wasn't breathing. Could a vampire preform CPR? Well, she was about to find out.

She tilted his head back, placed one hand on top of the other, and began chest compressions. Thirty of them, to be exact.

2015-10-08 08:41:05

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My eyes blinked open and I found myself back on the pier. What? No, how could I fail, how could I be /this dry/?! Maybe...maybe I'd fallen asleep, and dreamed about what I'd planned to do. I stood up and ran over to the first people I saw, a couple on a beach towel slightly further along the shoreline. Surely they would've noticed if someone simply fell asleep nearby. I called out, but they didn't turn. Odd, but not too much so. There were all sorts of crazy types around here, they could have learned to ignore them. I reached them, stopping in front of their towel and surprisingly lacking in a shortage of breath. I looked at them. They looked past me. Or...through me? Are they alright? I reached out and tapped the boy on the -- ...my finger went through him. I waved my arm. My whole /hand/ went through him. No. No. What? What is this? It must be a dream. Because the only other option..... That was supposed to just be in Calistor. Right? RIGHT?! I cried out and threw myself at the boy in a shoulder tackle, falling right through him and landing on my side with no pain. Oh God. What am I? I'm nothing. I'm literally nothing. A ghost. I wrapped my arms around myself, since myself was now the only thing I could touch. This couldn't be. The only escape.....led to /this/? Complete and utter loneliness? How could that be. So nothing...nothing I've done....has gotten me any closer to happiness. There is no such thing. If it isn't in life, and it isn't in death, then there is no happiness for me. I sat down behind them, where no one could hear me, in other words, though that was everywhere now, and cried.

I gasped, short and shallow. What? My eyes were suddenly closed again. I felt wet, waterlogged, and....on land. And close to unconsciousness. Very close to unconsciousness. Had I been revived? How? /Why/? Who had even been nearby....? Is this good? Bad? I don't know anymore. Either way, I'll have no one. And which one brings less pain? I don't know that either. There's nothing left to do. Nothing at all.

2015-10-08 08:53:23

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Before Ivory gave him breath. She saw him breathe once more. Well...time to get out of here while she still could. Ivory stood up, pulling her hoodie back over her, picked up her shoes once more, and started to walk away.

2015-10-08 08:55:55

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I heard something. I choked, coughed, wobbled to my hands and knees and projected seawater over the side of the pier. Then I blinked blearily over at the beach, where someone walked, away from me. I remembered what I'd heard. That voice. Quiet, only in my head, but there. Ivory? What was....after she tried to kill me, she tried to save me? I don't understand. I tried to call out, but only started coughing again after the "I--!"

2015-10-08 08:58:55

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She stopped, then turned only her head to look at him for a second. Silent. Just leave her alone, please. It was best. For everyone. She faced forward again, and inhaled deeply before she moved once more.

2015-10-08 09:01:43

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She was back to the way she'd been before. This was the Ivory that would hold me tightly while she told me me everything was going to be alright. The lie Ivory? Maybe I'll find out. I spit out more water and managed to choke "Ivory, c-come back!"

2015-10-08 09:03:58

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She stopped again, and turned, full body facing him now. "Why." It sounded more like a statement than a question.

2015-10-08 09:05:45

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I coughed. I shook. I called, more softly. "I don't c-c-care at this point if you lied to me all that time, or if I'm just some kind of entertainment f-for you.....please don't go. I don't want to be alone anymore." More salt water joined that on my face. My lips turned blue.

2015-10-08 09:09:46

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She shook her head. "No, I never lied to you." She called back. "Not once did I ever lie to you. But the truth is, I hurt people. That's all I ever do. So just...stay away from me."

2015-10-08 09:12:22

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"You do...more than that. You just saved me from a-an eternity of loneliness." They fell faster. "There's no afterlife, Ivory. I saw it. I felt it. There's no Heaven, or Hell, or even an e-empty void. Those of us who die are just destined to walk the earth forever, unseen, unheard....I...I don't care how much I don't want to live, dying is so much worse. You s-saved me." She never lied? Really? Every 'I love you'....that was all true?

2015-10-08 09:15:32

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She paused. "You think I don't /know/ that? You think I just told you those thing so you wouldn't kill yourself? If that was really it. You're wrong. No. I told you those things because /I/ see them. When I said if you died, I'd come with you? I meant it. I don't /want/ to see your ghost, Seculus. /Ever./ Because that would be too much for me. I'd kill myself too if I saw only your ghost!"

2015-10-08 09:19:46

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I sobbed. "Would you /STOP SAYING THAT/! If that one line is supposed to comfort me, it's not helping, in fact it just makes me feel worse! The last thing I want is to drag everyone down with me, and every time you say that, you remind me that that's exactly what I'm doing!"

2015-10-08 09:22:54

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"THEN HOW THE HELL DO YOU THINK I FEEL WHEN YOU SAY YOU WANT TO DIE?!" She didn't mean to shout, but it came out that way. She started to tremble, blinking back tears.

2015-10-08 09:24:19

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"HORRIBLE! AND I HATE IT! I DON'T /WANT/ YOU TO FEEL THAT WAY, I WISH EVERYONE WOULD LEAVE ME ALONE SO THEY DON'T HAVE TO, BUT I'M SELFISH, and scared, I'm scared to be alone..........." I manage to clamber to my feet and gain some semblance of strength while I shouted, but then I trailed off, going limp and battered again.

2015-10-08 09:27:55

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Tears were streaming down her face right now, she wiped them away. "Well it's a bit too late for that now. Everyone's alone now, and it's my fault. So please. Do yourself a favor, and /stay away./"

2015-10-08 09:30:17

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"No. I'm alone because of /me/. Anndrea left because of /me/. The only reason I'm not completely alone right this second is because of /you/." All that chanting of don't cry, don't cry, don't cry, was like it had all piled up until now, and now I could do nothing but just that.

2015-10-08 09:32:12

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"And Ren was turned because of /me./ You were almost murdered because of /me./ I even stabbed Zane just because he wouldn't let me kill Cale. Not even /Lance/ can look me in the eye anymore." She admitted. "Don't you see? I was never meant to be a good person, and I'm an idiot for pretending otherwise. We can stop lying to ourselves now."

2015-10-08 09:35:52

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She turned Ren? ...not the highest priority right now, Seculus. "I never lied to myself. Why do you?"

2015-10-08 09:37:35

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"Yes. You have. You're doing it right now! Just do yourself a favor and leave me alone!" Without another word, she turned, and started to leave once more.

2015-10-08 09:38:40

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"EVERYONE I LOVE HAS FORGOTTEN OR LEFT ME! I'M NOT LETTING YOU GO TOO!" I ran after her and grabbed her in a hug, hands and wrists a shade of periwinkle.

2015-10-08 09:40:46

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She stopped when she was hugged. Trembling, crying. She couldn't speak anymore. It hurt too much to. Why was this so hard? Why was everything so hard. He should hate her. It was easier. So much easier.

2015-10-08 09:43:02

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You idiot, you're getting her soaked. I don't care. Well, you should. I don't. I don't care about anything anymore. I just don't want to be alone. "..........please," I whispered, shivering. "Don't go."

2015-10-08 09:44:45

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She wanted to shrink and disappear. Can't he just /listen./ She was bad. Nothing but terrible. She reached up and pulled her hood over her eyes once more. "I'm sorry." She pulled herself away, out of his arms. "But I have to."

2015-10-08 09:47:49

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I stared down at my frozen hands, feeling empty inside. I couldn't let this be the end. There is no escape. Not death, not life, existence goes on and is a constant, unbearable pain. Please. Please, don't let me be alone for all of it. Tears crystallized on my face and I lowered my head and hands. There was no convincing her. There was no point. In anything.

2015-10-08 09:50:33

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It wasn't as if I had anything /else/ to do. I went to the shop to see if Lance could help me with my hands. They hadn't returned to their normal color, and I could barely feel them anymore. After a minute fumbling the doorknob, I just shoved it open with my shoulder and stumbled into the store. From what I'd heard, I doubted Ivory would come back here. I'd stopped dripping only when the water soaking my clothes and body froze into crusted salt. "......L-Lance?" I called, shivering.

2015-10-09 01:02:12