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Well, she certainly wasn't a few minutes ago. "For now, just...lie down. Sleep it off."

2015-10-09 04:03:13

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"...Promise me you won't leave?"

2015-10-09 04:04:59

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"I....I promise."

2015-10-09 04:06:14

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"Thank you." She lied back down on the couch, and got comfortable.

2015-10-09 04:08:32

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I stayed there and watched her, expression emptying to mirror what I felt inside. Eventually, I started to get drowsy too, and fell asleep rolled over the other direction.

2015-10-09 04:11:10

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Ivory blinked away in the foggy place. What happened before-oh. Right. She made things even worse for herself. Instead of getting up and looking around, she sat up, and drew her legs in close. Whoever was here, she didn't want to talk too. They were probably pissed at her. She made the mistake of looking around last time and well...she's still healing from that.

2015-10-09 04:19:28

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I stood up. Everything was cold again, but nothing was numb. It doesn't matter anymore who I see here. No one would be welcome. ...except Ivory. Maybe. But she'd be sober here, and angry at me. Well.....better to find out sooner rather than later. As I walked, I left a trail of ice, and called out "...hello? Helloooo," with my hands cupped around my mouth.

2015-10-09 04:24:29

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She heard something. Someone. Seculus. Guilt hit her immediately. She covered her ears, and shut her eyes, trembling slightly. Please. Don't notice her. She fucked up. She fucked up bad.

2015-10-09 04:27:02

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Ivory. /Stop this/. "I know you can hear me. Please, just...answer me."

2015-10-09 04:29:01

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"I...I'm sorry." She finally choked out, tears flowing already. Fuck. Could she not cry for once in her life?

2015-10-09 04:30:40

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......I think I might have a heart again. Because.....I may have just felt it tear. "It isn't your fault. Not at all." ...no. It was just me. I found her and sat down beside her.

2015-10-09 04:33:30

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"Yes it is. I'm sorry." She cried out, burying her head into her knees. "I'm such an idiot."

2015-10-09 04:35:12

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".........." Nothing I've said has ever convinced her otherwise. I don't know how to help anymore. So I just....hugged her.

2015-10-09 04:36:20

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She felt arms around her, promptly turned towards him.and threw her arms around him tightly, face buried into his chest as she cried. Why? Why did he still want to be near her?! Why did he still care? She almost killed him. She hurt him badly.

2015-10-09 04:39:13

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Why? ...... ".....because I love you."

2015-10-09 05:38:12

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.....She gripped him tighter, still trembling. "I love you too." She sobbed. "I'm sorry for everything."

2015-10-09 05:39:59

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"Don't apologize to me. I already forgave you."

2015-10-09 05:41:07

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"I...I know...but..." But it didn't feel like it was enough. It felt like she needed to do more to earn his love back.

2015-10-09 05:43:31

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"You don't. Just, please....never do what you did at the pier again. For a few hours, I felt like my whole world was on the brink of implosion."

2015-10-09 05:58:00

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"...I thought keeping you far away from me was the best option for all of us."

2015-10-09 05:59:12

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"Maybe for you, and for everyone else, we tend to be a dangerous combination, but....I was completely and utterly alone starting this afternoon. Finding out about.....about death and then having you leave a /third/ time, I didn't know what else was left to do except let myself fall into cryogenic stasis."

2015-10-09 06:03:46

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"....I know....I know....That was wrong of me. I should been there for you. I was dumb."

2015-10-09 06:05:44

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"No. You weren't. You did what you thought was best at the time, and you didn't know. Just..../please/. Don't do it again."

2015-10-09 06:07:42

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"I won't."

2015-10-09 06:08:30

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I went silent for a moment. Finally, I spoke again, when I had something in mind to say. "....what do I do now? Death is no escape...but....even happy, I couldn't stand the thought of living forever." These two facts battled inside me, destroying everything in their path. I still felt numb at the revelation.

2015-10-09 06:12:41