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"..............thanks. I mean, I'm not dead, and I'm positive I'm not going to be, but--" My nose grew a bit and I went quiet.

2015-10-28 11:07:32

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"....I can honestly say nothing is certain at this point."

2015-10-28 11:08:02

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"......you're right...." I moved my arms to wrap them around my head instead. Ahhh.....I don't want to die...! "..I'm scared...what if I do die?" My nose shrank again, but I don't even care at this point. What will happen to me next?

2015-10-28 11:10:04

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"You're not going to die." She frowned. "If you do, I'll drag God out into the streets by their hair."

2015-10-28 11:11:09

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"You said nothing's certain. I'm having trouble breathing, I don't know if I....that wouldn't get you anywhere but killed."

2015-10-28 11:12:30

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"It's not like I have anything to lose. I've done enough bad shit to become a devil when I die."

2015-10-28 11:13:33

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"No you won't. Fuck, you have something to lose sitting less than ten feet from us right now. I don't have anything, but I'm still scared.."

2015-10-28 11:16:36

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"Trust me, I will, but I'm not arguing that with you right now. I'd be scared too if I was you."

2015-10-28 11:18:05

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"No you wouldn't, you'd be finding some way to deal with this, with Seculus's help, and Lance's, and the rest of your fine camaraderie of friends...."

2015-10-28 11:20:27

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"No, I wouldn't. I'd be in my room crying. Like you are right now."

2015-10-28 11:21:07

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".....I'm not /crying/...."

2015-10-28 11:21:45

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"/I know./"

2015-10-28 11:22:20

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"..I'm not....." I raised my head a little, still not looking at her. Instead I stared blankly at my one remaining hand.

2015-10-28 11:23:45

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"You're not what?"

2015-10-28 11:24:15

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I'm not fucking worth your time is what. I've only got....what, hours left..... ".....Ivory."

2015-10-28 11:25:31

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"Yes?"

2015-10-28 11:25:45

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"....I can't feel anything with the wood anymore....not even pain."

2015-10-28 11:26:51

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"...Well I would assume so."

2015-10-28 11:27:40

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Right. Just telling her things she already knows now. Wasting her time /and/ mine. ".................can I...............hold your hand?"

2015-10-28 11:28:49

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"....Yes." Why the hell not?

2015-10-28 11:29:32

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Well, it's not like I was expecting -- wait. What? Did I miss her answer? Is she responding to some entirely different question now? I looked at her with surprise and confusion. "Seriously? You're...actually...?"

2015-10-28 11:31:51

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She held out her hand. "I see no harm in it."

2015-10-28 11:32:23

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............she......... Hesitantly, I reached out and took her soft hand, not sure if she would pull it back and laugh at me.

2015-10-28 11:33:44

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She entwined her fingers with his, and lightly held his hand.

2015-10-28 11:34:13

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.............../now/ I was crying, though silently. She came to see if I was okay. She's letting me hold her hand. Could she actually care about me? After everything? I want to die even less now, if that's possible. If this is the last thing I feel though, that's...that's not that bad.

2015-10-28 11:37:39