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"Okay, alright, I'm not leaving. I'm not leaving if you dont want me to. It's okay." He muttered, kissing his forehead.

2015-08-22 23:55:50

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He knew he should probably say something back. Maybe stop acting like such a wriggler and proceed with normal interactions. But it's hard and he's so tired of it all.

2015-08-22 23:57:59

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He doesn't need him to say anything, Eridan is clearly upset and he isn't ready to. "It's okay. I love you." He kissed his forehead. "I don't need you to say anything back."

2015-08-22 23:59:38

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Ampora's don't cry. The stuff coming from one eye is merely because he had his eyes open when he pressed his face against his shirt and he got fabric against his eye. Not smart, but it's the logical reasoning.

He was tucking himself completely up against Dave, hiding his face in his chest and generally just trying to disappear.

2015-08-23 00:28:26

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He closed his eyes, not commenting on the wet feeling he was starting to have on his chest, only holding him a bit closer. He wished he could just curl up around Eridan and hold him at all times, just instantly make it better, but... He can't. He can only try his best.

2015-08-23 00:30:49

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Little shakes had started along his shoulders and he did his best to quiet them, clutching his shirt so tight he was probably going to put holes in it. Trying to stop the tears was an even worse attempt.

He didn't know how long they laid like that, only that he faintly heard the feeding timer go off for the midday food.

2015-08-23 00:33:09

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"It's alright. Let it out." He muttered somewhere along the way, feeling a sharp pain in his chest as he felt him start to crumble.

When he heard the timer, he petted his hair a bit. "You can do it in a bit." He said softly.

2015-08-23 00:35:30

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He whimpered once and it was like a dam broke. He shook as he cried, gradually soaking Dave's shirt where it was under his face.

He clawed weakly at his shirt, trying to pull him closer and keep him at a distance at the same time because crying is a weakness and he spent so long trying to make himself a solid wall of stone that couldn't be touched.

2015-08-23 00:38:14

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Dave kept himself as close as he managed, tangling their legs to give him the illusion of more closeness. He closed his eyes, muttering sweet little nothings from time to time to maybe help him feel remotely better.

2015-08-23 00:40:32

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His stifled sniffles turned into full out sobs that shook his whole body. He was muttering words and apologies in sea tongue. He always seemed to revert to sea tongue when he got terribly upset over anything.

2015-08-23 00:44:59

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He certainly didn't understand jack of what he was saying, but he figured he didn't need to. He kept being gentle with him, however, especially as he felt a large tear stain form on his shirt.

2015-08-23 00:47:48

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He finally subsided with his now almost frantic pleadings for forgiveness. He didn't try and move away from him just yet, feeling like his limbs were almost spaghetti and he didn't want to embarrass himself any more. He forced himself to relax his grip on his shirt.

2015-08-23 00:51:29

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"Hey, hey... Eridan its okay, all is good." He still didn't understand what he was saying, but he sounded distressed. "You're okay, I'm here." He kisses the top of his head now.

Dave moved his hand between the two of them, placing it over one of Eridan's, and gently lacing their fingers

2015-08-23 00:54:08

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He squeezed at his hand, clutching it almost desperately.

He moved eventually, pulling away to sit up. His movements were jerky and he refused to look at Dave just yet, feeling far too embarrassed about his useless stupid fucking breakdown. He was supposed to be a fucking frigid wall when it came to more negative emotions, and here he was sobbing like a fucking wriggler.

He stood to go feed his fish, stumbling his first few steps in his haste to get there and hide his stupid tear stained face.

2015-08-23 00:57:49

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He sighed softly when Eridan got up, taking the chance to put his shades to the side before he followed, leaning against the door as he watched him feed the fish. "No shame in crying." He mutters.

2015-08-23 00:59:42

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He didn't acknowledge his words just yet, shoulders hunched as he fed his fish. He ended up staring at them listlessly. "There is when you're not supposed to." He was supposed to be a strong person, and in his opinion strong people weren't meant to cry in front of others. "... Sorry about making your shirt wet."

2015-08-23 01:04:24

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"Eridan, you are probably the strongest person I've ever met." He sighs softly, walking over. "You can cry whenever you feel like it if it helps. You aren't made of steel." Dave cupped his cheeks gently as he spoke, to make Eridan look his way, though he could turn his head quite easily. "I'm here for you."

2015-08-23 01:06:06

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He nearly cried again. He shook his head slightly, lower lip wobbling a bit as he reached up with his hand to hold Dave's. "Seadwellers are supposed to be strong an' immovable. All I do is throw fits over everything an' dramatise everything an' it annoys people."

2015-08-23 01:09:35

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"No one is supposed to be like that." Dave assures him, stroking his cheeks with his thumbs. "You can always build up defences, I guess, but if you dont let everything out now and then, you just break. Everybody breaks. I break, you break, the queen of England probably did so a few times too. I'm here for you, I want you to be okay, so... don't hold back. Um... shit, that was cheesy, sorry."

2015-08-23 01:12:23

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He closed his eyes, letting his forehead drop as he lent against him. He ended up with his forehead resting against his shoulder, hands coming around to hold his shoulders. "... I just want them to get that I'm sorry. I just want them to be my friends again but they all say they're happier without having to take care of me or make sure I'm not causing trouble an' I always thought that they might've at some point actually enjoyed spending time wwith me but none'a them ever did."

2015-08-23 01:15:37

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Hearing that made his chest ache more than it should, his arms carefully going around him. "Hey, I'm sure they did like spending time with you. And if they didn't, fuck them. You'll get better friends, and you're going to be okay, because you're amazing and they can't control you." He kisses his head softly. "I promise."

2015-08-23 01:18:52

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"He said he wwas glad that he- that I wwasn't spending time wwith him anymore because I ruined everything." Ah fuck he was gonna cry again. Fucking dammit. "He was supposed to be my f-friend." He clutched tight to him, shoulders shaking again as he sniffled.

2015-08-23 01:20:39

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He was probably talking about Karkat. Dave closed the space between them as he hugged him closer, keeping his voice gentle and soothing. "I'm also your friend, definitely a better one too, and I say he can go lick sweaty massive horse balls. You didn't ruin anything. He was just a shitty friend. Like most of them are being."

2015-08-23 01:24:02

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"You're my /boy/friend. Much more important to me." He tried to joke, not lifting his face from his shoulder so his voice was muffled slightly. He squeezed him lightly, shifting his face a bit before pulling back so that he could wipe his face. "I hate them."

2015-08-23 01:26:11

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He smiled softly as he stressed that they weren't just friends, and hummed a bit in agreement.

He tilts his chin up a little to kiss him, noticing his tear-stained cheeks. "You will make better friends. They were everything but friends."

2015-08-23 01:28:11