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"........" It's not like I can say it's because I want to know what she really thinks of me.

2015-10-29 08:03:48

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"Exactly."

2015-10-29 08:04:18

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"I have reasons. I'd just rather not say them." I looked down at the snapped-off nose in my other hand. ....really disturbing, if you think about it.

2015-10-29 08:06:17

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She shrugged. "Suit yourself, then."

2015-10-30 03:47:53

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"I will, thank you very much." Zane peered a little closer at her. "When did you start wearing that earring?"

2015-10-30 03:53:01

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"Hmm?" Her hand absently went to her ear. In one of the two piercing holes was gold earring. She had worn it since Seculus gave it to her in Serendipity, but completely forgot she never took it out until now. "Oh! Just a bit ago. Seculus gave it to me."

2015-10-30 03:58:57

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"Wasn't he wearing that last time we saw him though?" I asked. I didn't think he had two, since he only has one ear pierced.

2015-10-30 04:01:10

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"Yes? There is such thing as getting similar piercings."

2015-10-30 04:02:01

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"But it looks /exactly the same/."

2015-10-30 04:03:11

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"A lot of piercings can look the same."

2015-10-30 04:04:35

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"Why would he even get you a piercing that looks like his, instead of something your taste?"

2015-10-30 04:07:13

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"It's just an earring, nothing to really be picky over."

2015-10-30 04:08:13

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I frowned a little. She wasn't making much sense, and I was pretty sure she was lying. ....Zane accepted her answer without protest, of course.

2015-10-30 04:10:06

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Silence.

Tick.

Ivory stood up and turned in her test on Romeo and Juliet. Of course, she wasn’t worried about this particular test, english was her best subject, and Romeo and Juiliet was by far her favorite play. Quickly, she returned to her desk, and took out a piece of paper from her pants pocket.

“Ivory,

Coming out is probably going to be one of the hardest things you are ever going to do. Not everyone is going to accept you for being bisexual, but you must know I will. Your mom or dad may or may not understand at first, but you must understand that they love you. They will always love you.”

She smiled. Of course Cassandra would help her in a time like this. All her friends were great to her.

They were the best friends anyone could have, weren’t they?

She slid the note back into her pocket. Of course she’d have to prepare to come out, but it’d be a huge relief once she did. She could do this. Things were going to be okay.

It was two weeks later, Ivory came inside her home from school, immediately slipping her shoes off. She turned to head towards her room.

“And where do you think you’re going…” Her mother's voice. Why was she here? Shouldn’t she be at work? Uh oh, she sounded pissed off. Ivory turned. Her mother was on the couch, wine glass in hand. Had she been drinking? Oh god, she only did that when-

The note Cassandra gave her about coming out was on the table.

“You didn’t check your pockets before I did laundry. Now what’s this about you being bisexual?”

Well, this wasn’t what she expected on how to come out. Here goes nothing.

“Well Mom, I’m actually pa-”

“Making it up.”

“No I’m-”

“/Making it up./” She repeated, her tone rising.

Oh.

She continued on. “I did not have a daughter just to see her become anything but straight. This is a phase, ivory. You are not gay. You are a christian woman. IF I WANTED A GAY DAUGHTER, I WOULD OF HAD A BOY, GOD SAID ADAM AND EVE NOT EVE AND EVA.. I COULD OF ABORTED YOU, YOU KNOW! I DIDN’T WANT CHILDREN IN MY LIFE BUT HERE YOU ARE, NOW YOU’RE GOING TO GO TO YOUR ROOM. YOU’RE GOING TO TELL CASSANDRA THAT YOU LIED, AND IF I HEAR ONE MORE THING ABOUT THIS, I WILL MAKE YOUR LIFE HELL! AND YOU WILL BE OUT OF HERE AND ON THE STREETS”

Ivory blinked to hold back her tears.

Was this just a phase?

No it wasn’t. She knew that.

She turned, and headed to her room, without another word. Once she closed the door behind her, she pressed her back to it. Slowly, she slid down till she felt herself hit the floor. Covering her mouth to prevent her from being too loud, she sobbed deeply, tears streaming down her face.

Fuck. Fucking dammit. Her only thought was the word ‘fuck’. She shouldn’t of said anything. She should've kept it hidden. Girls liking girls was wrong. She was a freak. A freak.

2015-10-30 04:16:43

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Ren slept on their floor. No, they still hadn't taken Ivory's protests into account. No, they still hadn't bought a bed. They really didn't need one, they didn't see the point.

"These go in the back corner, right?"

Yep, right over there.

"'Kay, thanks!" A little boy with spiky dirty blonde hair and bright blue eyes hefted a box of paints and toddled over to the shelf, dropping them heavily. A few of the well-used watercolor sets bounced out and onto the floor.

You should pick those up or someone might trip.

"Yeah, you're right." He cleaned up and blew dust off his hands, sneezing at the resulting small cloud. "...hey, Brielle?"

Yes sweetie?

"Why isn't anybody helping me put things away?"

They're just busy, that's all.

"No, they walk home and they all left early. Was it to get away from me?"

....oh. Of course not, they just had things to do and knew you'd take good care of this, they'll greet you with big smiles and hugs tomorrow!

"But nobody touches me." They knelt to watch a spider crawling out from behind a box. "I think they're scared."

Don't be silly, why would they be scared, they wouldn't be scared!! You're just special. You're so special, and unique, and they're jealous.

If they're scared then I'm going to give them a reason to be.

Khasper, /no/. If you just show them how kind you are, they'll be too busy loving you to be jealous~

".....buuut....it's 'cause I talk to you? Frannie doesn't say anything about it, but I bet she thinks it too. I like talking to you guys though! Even if Khasper doesn't usually say much." He'd chat with Brielle when he got bored in class, and he still hadn't learned his lesson after being called out by the teacher several times. He also got strange looks from his classmates when he'd laugh at something they couldn't hear. They were missing out.

And we love talking to you too! Just maybe do it more in private, or in your head, we /can/ hear your thoughts, after all!

"You won't mind if I don't talk to you out loud?"

It won't change a thing. And even if you forget to talk to us at all, I'll be happy just watching you being different and you.

He grinned a gap-toothed smile and stood up, knees stained with dirt. "You're awesome, Brielle!"

Awww, thank you, I love you too. Now you'd better get back home before your mother starts worrying.

"That's right, we're having my favorite tonight too. Let's go!" He ran over towards the door, but on the way tripped and fell on his face. His lip was bleeding a little from a chipped scab he'd gotten from chewing his lip, but he didn't seem to notice or mind, and kept smiling. He had to reach up to open the door, he was the shortest in his class. It creaked upon and then shut behind him.

In the real world, Ren saw Ivory's memory, the first they'd seen since being turned. It was so sad. Her mother was so /angry/. And she blamed herself for that? They woke up hiccuping and crying softly, hugging a blanket. Poor Ivory. Poor, poor Ivory. They wanted to hug her too, but she wasn't here, and it was the middle of the day....

2015-10-30 04:45:01

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Ivory's eyes fluttered open. A memory? Well, it had been a while since she turned Ren. Seculus laid a few feet from her, napping. Quietly, she leaned in close and kissed him on the cheek before she rested her head on his chest. So this is what Ren was like in their older years? They seemed...happy, at least. Even if...Brielle was there. That name was like acid in her mind. It hurt just to think about her...but...at least she couldn't hurt Ren now.

2015-10-30 04:54:40

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I found myself in the foggy place after finally being able to sleep in days. I've spent days looking for Dameien, or what was left was Dameien, with Lance. Nothing. Phoe records were cleared. Skype was wiped clean along with everything on his smashed computer, which I found in his bathtub. Which was filled to the brim with salt water. Whoever did this, covered their tracks well, and I hoped that whoever it was, wasn't going to strike again. I started moving. Maybe I could find Lance here and we could work some more?

2015-10-30 05:07:19

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A young man quite resembling Seculus lay on the ground with his hands folded behind his head, squinting into the sky to see if there was some kind of ceiling or atmosphere. There didn't appear to be, and that was bothersome, since it meant they really shouldn't be able to breathe here. It didn't matter to /him/, of course, what with not being a real person and all, but in theory it seemed important. He had wavy red hair that safety goggles failed to keep out of his face, and he wore skinny jeans with a cardigan that looked to have originated from some poor, scissor-mauled lab coat. There wasn't much to do here, and despite it being a completely unknown area, not much to learn either. Seculus was sort of fun to talk to, but he was asleep right now, and it was only when he was in a certain kind of mood that the 'conversations' were really /interesting/. He didn't have access to coffee here, either. So Jack might've gotten Seculus addicted. It was worth it while it lasted.

2015-10-30 05:13:25

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I stopped.Was that...Louhkie? No? Who the fuck- who was he and why was he in here? "Hey!" I called out.

2015-10-30 05:18:47

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Oh? /Oh/!! That was unexpected! But, as he always said, the unexpected is to be expected and hoped for when working with experimentation! ....he wished that were an actual saying so other people would use it too. He sat up and looked over at Eilliot, smiling broadly and waving. "Eilliot, my good man! Greetings and salutations!"

2015-10-30 05:21:33

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I frowned. How did he know- Nevermind. "Have we met before?" I asked, confused.

2015-10-30 05:22:39

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"Why, of course! I'll give you three guesses and one hint. The hint is we haven't met."

2015-10-30 05:23:16

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"...Then how do you know my name?" I narrowed my eyes.

2015-10-30 05:23:49

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"Haha, you tease. Three guesses!"

2015-10-30 05:24:45

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"I-" I rubbed my temples and sighed. "How would I know who you are if we haven't met?"

2015-10-30 05:25:39