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"I can't, I don't know how...." He was shaking, and wrapped his arms around himself as the tips of his fingers turned blue. "He won't.....go away......and he keeps on getting louder.......LOUDER? YOU WANT LOUDER???"

2015-10-13 07:45:38

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She looked at his fingertips as they turned blue. She...was sorry, but she couldn't take this anymore. Immediately, she turned to get Terezi.

2015-10-13 07:49:24

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I turned and ran. Why do you have to do this to me? /Why/? You've been slacking off, and so has Calypso. /Someone/ has to tell you the truth every so often. It's not the truth, though, I'm.....worthless? Stupid? Unloved? Yes. Yes, you are.

I sat on the couch, drinking the last remaining bottle of whiskey. Maybe this would make him shut up, if my head was a blur. Maybe. Before, though, I'd sent Ivory a text....she'd said to tell her next time I planned on getting drunk. I didn't know about getting drunk, but if I found any more alcohol, it was a definite possibility. I didn't call her. I didn't trust my own voice not to betray me. The bottle was frozen to my hand.

2015-10-13 07:55:31

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Once Ivory received the message, she texted back that she would be over right away. She carefully put her jacket on, and stuffed her pants and as well as her jacket's pockets with starlight peppermint candies. Yes, she knew these were going to make her sick, but did she care? Nope. She wanted a five pound bag of these, so she bought a five pound bag of them. Fuck everyone and everything. As she was heading towards the front door of the shop, she noticed Lance and Cale were hanging out together. She looked at them, flashed a fang grin, put a mint in her mouth, and slipped out the door.

Eventually she made it to Seculus's apartment. She knocked on the door and waited, moving the candy around in her mouth.

2015-10-13 08:01:52

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I shook my hand. The glass just sort of dangled off my palm. ...it hurt. I sighed, took hold of it again, and got up, rubbing my eyes and opening the door. "...I'm.......sorry for bothering you........." I said quietly. Thank God. No interruptions this time.

2015-10-13 08:03:40

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She chuckled. "Are you kidding me? You're never a bother." She smiled, her breath strongly mint scented from how much of the candies she ate today.

2015-10-13 08:06:15

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"........please...come in......" I moved aside. Were those....good for her?

2015-10-13 08:07:30

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She moved inside, and held up a piece between her fingers. "Want one?" It might help take the edge off. It wasn't the /same/, but it might make him feel better.

2015-10-13 08:09:34

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"..........thank you." I took it in my free hand and placed it on my tongue before closing the door behind her and returned to the couch to slump over.

2015-10-13 08:10:39

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She sat down next to him. "Do wanna tell me /why/, you're getting drunk?"

2015-10-13 08:11:55

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I stayed silent for a moment, still not sure whether.../he/ would make his opinion known again. Nothing. The alcohol? I hoped so. "I scared....I scared Anndrea...very badly......and now I'm sure Terezi thinks I'm completely insane too..........." I tried to bury my head in my hands, but the bottle got in the way, so instead I just picked up a pillow to shove my face and possibly scream into.

2015-10-13 08:14:47

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She frowned, and placed an arm on his shoulder. "I'm really sorry that happened."

2015-10-13 08:16:40

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".......it was all my fault.....he wouldn't shut up, and I couldn't calm down, even enough to just have a quiet little panic attack.........."

2015-10-13 08:18:24

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She frowned. "Seculus, look at me." She gently moved his face away from the pillow to face her. "It's not your fault at all."

2015-10-13 08:20:43

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I stared at her hopelessly. ".......whose fault is it, then? Every single word came out of /my/ mouth...."

2015-10-13 08:23:06

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"It's nobodies fault. The situation probably could of been handled better as well."

2015-10-13 08:24:10

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".....I know. I'm sorry......I didn't know what to do...."

2015-10-13 08:24:47

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"It's alright. I'm here now. Nothing about that is going to change."

2015-10-13 08:25:28

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.....................this was why Ivory was so much different than her. I knew she would truly keep that promise. And...she wasn't scared. "........what if he yells at you?"

2015-10-13 08:27:39

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"Let him."

2015-10-13 08:27:59

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"I don't want him to hurt you with my voice, though....this shut him up, but...for how long...?" I lifted the whiskey slightly.

2015-10-13 08:29:47

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"He /won't/ hurt me. He /can't/ hurt me. The only way to hurt me, is if you do it yourself."

2015-10-13 08:30:46

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"....but.....he's......me."

2015-10-13 08:31:47

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"He's the little person inside of us that thinks he's right, but he's almost always wrong."

2015-10-13 08:32:53

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"......then what about the person who thinks he's wrong?"

2015-10-13 08:34:07