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"What? No. Why would I ever say that?"

2015-10-12 07:48:57

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"'Cause that's what you're saying right now! Then I'm alive!"

2015-10-12 07:50:15

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"...I...but..." If they were alive, things would be better. If they were alive, they wouldn't be having this conversation right now. If they were alive, she wouldn't feel so guilty about being near them. If they were alive, she wouldn't have to worry about their forgiveness. IF THEY WERE ALIVE, MAYBE SHE COULD FEEL SOMEWHAT HAPPY AGAIN.

2015-10-12 07:54:05

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Suddenly they went from feeling determined to guilty and very sad. They started sniffling, wiping at their nose as tears welled up in their eyes. "I'm sorryyyy I'm not aliiive........."

2015-10-12 07:56:53

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...Wait, shit! She took their hand and squeezed it tightly. "Nonono, I'm sorry. It's my fault. Please don't be sad. I'msorryI'msorryI'msorry!"

2015-10-12 07:59:19

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"If I were alive you'd be happy...I'm sorry I didn't try hardeeeer......"

2015-10-12 08:01:14

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"Please don't blame yourself. I did it. It was all my doing. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. "

2015-10-12 08:03:05

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"Nooo, it's, it's my fault, I should've, noticed..."

2015-10-12 08:10:12

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"And I should've stopped."

2015-10-12 08:10:41

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"I coulda stopped you...."

2015-10-12 08:12:01

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"But you shouldn't of had to!"

2015-10-12 08:12:49

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"I should've known to!"

2015-10-12 08:17:22

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"....we should've known better..."

2015-10-12 08:17:45

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"............" They rubbed their eyes. They couldn't disagree with that.

2015-10-12 08:19:30

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With her free hand, she wrapped it around them in a makeshift hug. "....I'm sorry that I can't make things better for you."

2015-10-12 08:20:56

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"......you can......" They hugged her back.

2015-10-12 08:23:51

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"...How?"

2015-10-12 08:24:17

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"...........move in with me. Then you don't have to worry about Lance, or Clarenz, and I don't have to worry about you, and everything will be okay...."

2015-10-12 08:25:13

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She paused, thinking this over. In all honesty? She wanted to. She /really/ wanted to. But what was keeping her there and not here? Lance. Even if it was shitty, or broken beyond repair. If there was anything left of it, she didn't know. She never sat down enough to focus on it, but she knew it was still there, and she had to honor that. But..."You could possibly...move in with me? I mean...it's a dumb idea but...there's a spare room...and my place is much bigger. Sure...we'd have to deal with Lance and Clarnez...but I won't let them hurt you.I won't let anyone hurt you."

2015-10-12 08:30:38

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".........you'd be safer here, though. No one could just walk in and yell at you."

2015-10-12 08:31:35

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"I know, but..." Why was so difficult. "But I'm still in some sort of bond with Lance. I can't just leave him...it...doesn't feel right..."

2015-10-12 08:32:45

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"....what does feel right?"

2015-10-12 08:35:46

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"...You do...and Lance....but...I can't have both. I know that."

2015-10-12 08:37:35

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"Yeah you can."

2015-10-12 08:41:32

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"...How?"

2015-10-12 08:41:48