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She faced forward, and kept walking. Right. She was never anyone's sunshine on a rainy day. If anything, she was the rain.

2015-10-11 08:17:36

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I missed my sunshine so much. Wait, what did I do? "Shit, you idiot, you hurt her feelings. I didn't mean to, I'm sorry, I just..... You were just being selfish, that's right, that's always your excuse. Getting all mopey over a girl who never really loved you, stop thinking about that already. But I can't, I....I can't forget about her...... Bang your head on a wall until you do, or throw yourself into traffic so you have an eternity to sulk if that's what you want. Just stop taking it out on Ivory, you great, blooming /asshole/. And don't you dare cry. Worthless piece of shit........"

He muttered to himself, putting his other hand to his face.

2015-10-11 08:26:50

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She stopped when she heard him mumbling. "Hmmm?" She turned to face him.

2015-10-11 08:28:52

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"You're freaking her out. Talk to yourself all you want when you're dead. ....but......I don't want to die, I don't want to be alone..... So what, it isn't like you aren't already. The second Zane talks to her again she's going to dump your broken ass like an old doll. I bet she left that thing on the street to be picked apart by crows, it's not like anyone would want it. She should just do the same to you. .........I.........." He covered his eyes with his hand, trying not to cry.

2015-10-11 08:36:47

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"...." She squeezed his hand firmly, and proceeded to hug him. It's going to be alright. Just calm down.

2015-10-11 08:39:21

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"No it isn't, nothing's going to be alright ever again, and you know that, don't you. I do, but....Ivory's here, so..... For how long? Until you fuck up again and drive her away like you've done to everyone else who ever pretended to care about you. But she doesn't pretend, she.... Only because you lied to her. You lied about being a nice person, or a good friend, or interested in anyone's feelings other than your own. You're pretentious for thinking you could declare yourself her angel, when you were never even a good one to start with! You're not an angel! YOU'RE JUST A WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT!" His voice grew past the mumble into audible speech, and he broke down crying.

2015-10-11 08:46:53

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She held him tighter. Shhh. Relax. It's okay. Just calm down. You don't need to work yourself up over this. Just take a deep breath.

2015-10-11 08:49:12

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I tried. I just choked on a sob. "I hate you, I hate you, whoever you are, I HATE YOU! Moron. I'm you. Of course you do."

2015-10-11 08:54:27

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"Seculus." She spoke quietly, trying to get his attention.

2015-10-11 08:56:00

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I heard my name, and it wasn't in my own voice. I'm scaring her. Oh, shit, I'm scaring her. You should shut up now. Just stop talking at all. I looked down at her through my tears. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm not right..........."

2015-10-11 08:59:08

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She reached up and placed both her hands on his face. "It's okay. It's alright. I'm here. I'm not going anywhere. Just breathe. It'll be alright."

2015-10-11 09:00:58

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I went quiet, still crying silently as I gasped for breath. It seems I've officially replaced Calypso as my torturer. And there's no escaping myself. If I could, I would.

2015-10-11 09:05:50

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As his tears fell, she gently brushed them away one by one. She's right here. She's here now. She's not going to leave.

2015-10-11 09:07:27

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I clutched at her wrists, and though my hands went cold, they didn't turn blue. ....thank you........I don't want to be alone again. Eventually, I managed to stop myself, expression going empty and hopeless again as I stared past her.

2015-10-11 09:10:54

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She waited until he stopped crying, and remained there for a moment. "...better?" Ivory finally asked.

2015-10-11 09:14:54

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"........sorry......."

2015-10-11 09:16:01

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"You don't need to apologize. You did nothing wrong."

2015-10-11 09:17:05

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"....I......I scared you......."

2015-10-11 09:18:01

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"Because I care about you."

2015-10-11 09:19:17

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".....both parts of me?......................I don't........."

2015-10-11 09:20:20

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"I care about all of you. Each little crack and crevice of you."

2015-10-11 09:21:25

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".............that's............a lot of cracks."

2015-10-11 09:23:48

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"And I care that much."

2015-10-11 09:24:08

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"...................." I rubbed my eyes. Did she really...? There was no possible way she could care enough for all...all of /this/. "..............really...?...."

2015-10-11 09:29:35

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"Yes." She didn't spare any time to answer.

2015-10-11 09:29:59