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She returned his embrace, squeezing him tightly. "I know. I know it's not real but...ahhh...." Her face became redder by just thinking over what happened.

2015-09-13 09:33:18

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"I can't believe he....and he calls himself a Christian? This is why he has no friends." He'd been lying about all his friends being at Bible study. Truth was, he just didn't have any in general. And now I understood why. "Just try to forget about it. He's dead now. I'm here, and I would never do that."

2015-09-13 09:36:58

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She looked up at him. "I-I know. I know you wouldn't."

2015-09-13 09:38:21

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I'd come close. I'd come far too close for comfort. But I would never go that far, and definitely not with full knowledge of how terrible it made her feel. ".....God, I hate him. How did I ever manage to become an angel?"

2015-09-13 09:40:53

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"I...don't quite understand it myself. There's just...ways. At least from what Lance said."

2015-09-13 09:44:18

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I was finally starting to thaw out a bit. Odd, since.... "You know, you really are oddly warm, considering....wait," she'd been bright red, vampires couldn't do that I think, "are you human here?"

2015-09-13 09:46:32

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She looked away, the peppermint scent intensifying slightly. "...Yes? I think. Kinda? I'm not sure." She answered, confusing herself in the process.

2015-09-13 09:48:45

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"Do you still have fangs? This doesn't...." Maybe since it was her soul here, that kind of physical change didn't apply? Perhaps the smell was sort of a manifestation of that too? And that applied to all of these things, like Anndrea's rain smell, and my cold.........oh. He'd been right. This must mean that my soul is, very literally, 'one of ice'. That was.... But this must be so nice for Ivory. She doesn't like being a vampire, right? I wished she could come here more often. Maybe not with me, but just to enjoy being human. Oh, wait. She can't hear any of this. Right. I should probably try to explain. "It seems like, since these aren't our real bodies but more manifestations of our souls, spirits, or some such, there's....little things that more physically display who we really are. You're still human inside, so you're human here. I think?" And I'm cold.

2015-09-13 09:54:30

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She instinctively reached for her teeth. No one had ever asked her that. Well. At least Lance did it. Sure enough, here teeth were normal. "Possibly...I'm not sure. Lance said that certain scents can come from our memories. In Disneyworld, they would have the streets scented with peppermint instead of vanilla during Christmas time. I it was the closest thing I got to winter back then, so I guess it sort of...stuck?"

2015-09-13 09:59:26

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Maybe that explained my pine tree scent. "Really? Well, that does sound like a fond memory...there truly is so much about this place we don't know. But you don't really need to understand it to enjoy it. Is it nice being human again?"

2015-09-13 10:03:42

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She paused, thinking over his question. "Yes. I do. A lot. I miss it, actually. Being human. I...never really wanted the vampire lifestyle."

2015-09-13 10:05:23

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"I don't see why one would. Or the appeal. But if you came here more nights, would that be a suitable replacement, for now...?" Okay, so I was being a bit selfish again. I wanted to see her instead of...well, anyone else who might show up here. But if she enjoyed it too, that would be great.

2015-09-13 10:08:15

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"I can't control it that much but....I'll try,okay?"

2015-09-13 10:10:09

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I smiled a little at her and hugged her tighter. "...okay. If control was an option I would've tried to master it by now, I understand."

2015-09-13 10:13:06

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She rested her head on his chest, and smiled. "Lance can control it, but he's old. So I guess he doesn't count."

2015-09-13 10:14:06

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"It would be impossible to catch up to him. I still don't understand how he hides his wings."

2015-09-13 10:16:54

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"It takes practice. Once you learn it the first time, then it becomes easier after that. "

2015-09-13 10:17:46

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"The problem is learning it the first time at all. But I suppose I'll try..."

2015-09-13 10:21:31

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"Good." She finally pulled away from him. "Trying is all I need to hear."

2015-09-13 10:22:52

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......oh. That was where she had been going with that. "...not like that. I mean...just..." I sighed quietly. "....I really, truly don't know how much longer I can do this. Every second of the day scares me, I'm losing it, and you're basically the only nice person I ever get to talk to. It just doesn't seem worth it." How was I talking about this calmly for once? Well, at least I was analyzing it. So this was the reason. What had been her reason, when she tried? Her friends? The asylum? ...she'd had so much to deal with. Much more than me. I had no right to talk.

2015-09-13 10:26:10

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"...I know." She reached out and took his hand now. "I feel the same way. Medicine helps, but...it doesn't fix the problems. Just keeps me from doing something stupid."

2015-09-13 10:28:33

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"Is that the reason you've been able to go on? The medicine? I certainly hope it wasn't the drinking."

2015-09-13 10:30:34

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"Somewhat. As for the drinking... that was extremely recent. Lance wouldn't let me anywhere near alcohol when I was human for good reason."

2015-09-13 10:32:12

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"....that's good, at least. See, I told you he cares about you."

2015-09-13 10:33:42

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"I think it was just because he was scared of me killing myself, honestly."

2015-09-13 10:34:35