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They looked at him. "....but I already hurt him...."

2016-05-30 07:43:20

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"And he still wants to help."

2016-05-30 07:44:07

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"It's not safe, he might /die/." "All of us might die, at any point, at least if you kill me we'll know how it happened."

2016-05-30 07:46:49

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"/Please/ Ren, I'm begging you."

2016-05-30 07:47:23

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"He could die....!"

2016-05-30 07:48:24

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"You could die!"

2016-05-30 07:49:52

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"...I-I don't want to kill all my friends, I don't want to be alone...."

2016-05-30 07:50:50

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"And I don't want to lose you. Do you know how seeing this makes /me/ feel?"

2016-05-30 07:53:15

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"I knoww, but...you wouldn't be alone, I finally made friends, I don't want to be the reason I lose them...."

2016-05-30 07:55:04

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"I don't care if I would be alone or not. I can't keep doing this. /I can't./"

2016-05-30 07:56:00

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"...I can't either!...."

2016-05-30 07:57:30

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"You have to!"

2016-05-30 07:58:16

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"I don't want to feed, if I can keep getting bags from these people I will, if it means I don't have to....."

2016-05-30 07:59:40

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"Please don't! I'll...I'll make you stay!"

2016-05-30 08:00:15

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"Maybe they're not all like that one, that one was free, if I pay....you'll....y-y-you'll--" She'd make them? She'd /make/ them? Not again. They tried to move away from her, hugging themselves. They didn't want to be a vampire. They didn't want to be in a bond. Not when their life was like this.

2016-05-30 08:02:32

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She lashed out and pinned them down, trembling. Fear in her eyes. "I can't Ren. /I can't live like this anymore!/"

2016-05-30 08:04:01

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Seculus reached out and placed a hand on her shoulder. "I can't either, I don't /want/ to, I wish I were human, I, I hate this..!"

2016-05-30 08:06:51

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She said nothing in response, just started crying again.

2016-05-30 08:08:16

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Why, why why /why/ couldn't they just make her happy, they didn't want her to go, but they didn't want to lose anyone else, they were so selfish, if they'd never been born, e-everything, everything would be so much better, she wouldn't have to worry about them, they'd ruined her life, they'd.....

They were sobbing too, and lifted their head just to slam it into the floor. Seculus moved towards them much more quickly and hugged them both, trying to stop Ren from hurting themselves.

2016-05-30 08:12:33

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The hyperventilating and heart racing sensation started again, and she clung to both Ren and Seculus.

2016-05-30 08:14:26

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They ruined her life, they ruined her /life/, she'd be so much happier if they'd never met, if they were never around, she didn't want a bond either, she didn't need someone else to worry about, they shouldn't be around, if they weren't around.....

He was shaking too, but he tried to stay calm enough to help, rocking them back and forth gently. Madison put his hand on Seculus's back and joined the hug. He could stay calm. He wasn't one of the three people in the group sharing emotions.

2016-05-30 08:17:14

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Eventually Lance joined the hug too, and another anxiety attack later Ivory found herself laying her head on Seculus's shoulder, too exhausted to do anything.

2016-05-30 08:19:35

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Ren was very still, pretending to be dead. Better dead. Why couldn't they think? This was the second one they'd caused today, wasn't it? Why did they have to do this to her? Why did they have to exist...

2016-05-30 08:22:08

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Ivory slowly reached over and took Ren's hand, lightly holding it.

2016-05-30 08:24:37

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They started sniffling quietly again, clutching at her hand. They shouldn't exist. No one ever wanted them. They made things worse just by being there. Please don't leave them alone......

2016-05-30 08:26:48