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How could he do that? His body was lying on a puddle-laden sidewalk in Manchester...right? He was confused. So confused. What had that been? He still didn't speak, but put a hand to his face and cleared his vision of tears slightly. ...no. He was still on the roof.

2015-05-26 16:20:45

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She wiped the tears away from his cheek. "I'm here. I'm not going anywhere. Just please don't leave me."

2015-05-26 16:23:11

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"....I-I.....I..." That was the best he could do word-wise. He was shaking now, hugging himself.

2015-05-26 16:26:00

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"You don't have to say anything if you don't want to." She sobbed. "Just please don't hurt yourself."

2015-05-26 16:29:55

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He glanced down at his wrists. That might be....no, she hadn't noticed yet. He'd rather keep it that way. "....but I....I jumped....it was raining...." His voice trailed off. It obviously wasn't raining here, so had that been some kind of hallucination, or...?

2015-05-26 16:32:51

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"...You jumped, but I saved you...I don't know what you're talking about."

2015-05-26 16:34:03

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"....you didn't see it?...." He put a hand to his throat. No pendant hung there.

2015-05-26 16:35:12

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"See what?" Her voice was a bit more desperate now. If it could even be more desperate.

2015-05-26 16:35:51

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".....the boy. Seth. He...I..." His hand moved to his head. Ugh, what...

2015-05-26 16:37:13

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"There was only you, Seculus. And you scared me. Very badly."

2015-05-26 16:37:46

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Only him? "....I'm sorry...you shouldn't have worried....."

2015-05-27 03:13:09

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"Obviously I did! Look at what you were going to do! And it was my fault!"

2015-05-27 03:14:42

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He did. From the outside. And it still seemed like a good idea. "No, it wasn't, it was mine, everything was my fault......."

2015-05-27 03:19:05

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"No it isn' t!" She held him tighter. "Please stop hurting yourself like this! You're scaring me! I don't want you to leave!"

2015-05-27 03:21:59

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"I-I do, though, I hurt you, and Terezi, and I'll just hurt everyone m-more, it's b-better if I l-leave." He was chokingly sobbing himself now, and putting a hand up to wipe his face only smeared blood on his glasses. He wanted to follow the other boy off the edge. It seemed a happier existence than this, if only for a few seconds.

2015-05-27 03:34:03

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She immediately saw the blood and grabbed his wrist, squeezing tightly on it. "Can't you see that I love you! I love you so much! I don't care if it's better that you go, I just want you!" She sobbed deeply as it became hard to speak. "I just want you here. I love you. I love you!"

2015-05-27 03:37:59

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I love you.

So much.

He'd never had those words spoken to him before. Not in living memory.

He reached forward with his free hand shakily, trying to use the unstained back of his sleeve to soak up the tears on her face. ".....I...." Of course he loved her too. He'd loved her from the moment he saw her. Which had made his fuck-up all the worse. He'd betrayed her, he wasn't deserving of her, he wasn't deserving of anything. But she still wanted him here? And not just that, but...she loved him? Enough to forgive him for his stupid mistakes and all that were to come? "I l-love you more...which is why....I couldn't..." Couldn't stand to see you hating me. Couldn't work up the courage to do anything about it. Couldn't take the loneliness. Couldn't forget your face. Couldn't forget that boy's face. Couldn't quite be in reach of his own loving savior. Couldn't look back. Couldn't look at you. Couldn't do /anything/ worthwhile. Couldn't do anything but make you love a man who finds himself useless.

Couldn't.

Wouldn't.

2015-05-27 03:56:39

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He said it back, He said it back to her!

"You couldn't what?" She asked him, voice shaky.

2015-05-27 04:20:16

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".....couldn't stay."

2015-05-27 04:25:47

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"Please stay." She sputtered. "I need you....I really do..."

2015-05-27 04:27:27

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".....for what? Worrying you? I'm no good at defending anyone...I can't make you happy....." His bangs fell over his face again, sticking a little in the blood on his glasses.

2015-05-27 04:30:54

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"You've done nothing but make me happy. Apart from the past few days. We can work things out though, I promise. I'll do anything!"

2015-05-27 04:32:24

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He didn't say anything. His expression went blank again.

There was the boy around fourteen, and beside him, one a few years younger, with messily cut raven hair. It looked like it might've been styled with craft scissors at home by his mother. "Come on, Dad won't take me to see the new movie. If I go with you they'll let me in! Pleeeease? I'll do anything!" His cockney accent was higher. He was probably about ten. "No, I don't want to get in trouble with your parents. It's rated that way for a reason. I'm not even sure /I/ look old enough to get in without an ID." "...aw. Well, when you get older-looking, then." "...I'm fairly certain it won't still be in theaters at that point." "It's okay, we'll get it on DVD. Can we go see the other one then?" He gave the taller boy a gap-toothed grin. "I don't have any money on me right now. Maybe I can work things out for later." "You're the best big brother ever." "..Thank you, dear, my father likes you as well, but we're not actually..." "Big brother." He took his hand as they walked down the street, and Seth sighed with a slight smile.

2015-05-27 04:45:57

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She went quiet as well. Crying had finally taken control over her. All that was left was the sounds of her sobbing as she kept him close.

2015-05-27 04:54:43

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He gasped and blinked. What was--? She was still crying. He had no idea what to do. About her or these little..visions. He slowly put his hand over hers. "....don't..."

2015-05-27 05:04:48